May
21-31, 2004
Questions
(Quotes
from Ed in Red)
|
Answers
|
Mon, 31 May 2004
Shorts
Hi Ed,
I don't see any shorts in the trading system definition. Without trading the
downside haven't you lost half of the opportunity for profit?
I believe that
stocks behave differently on the down side vs. the upside and so symmetrical
systems don't work really well.
However, that
doesn't mean that you should ignore the downside all together.
Your collaborator mentions that the system is for stocks and then in
his money
management portion he is talking about contracts. Is this system meant for
stock futures?
Thanks for your FAQ, |
Yes,
the trader has no provision for shorts in his system. It also has no
provision for selling pretzels at baseball games, another profit
opportunity.
You
might clarify your meaning by re-writing without using the word,
"should."
I
do not know to what "collaborator mention" you refer - please
specify your reference by page, date and title.

What
You Should Do
can
twist your thinking
into
pretzels.
Clip: http://filebox.vt.edu/i/ibertmar/
pages/backgrounds/backrandom/
pretzels.jpg |
Mon, 31 May 2004
Cool Hand Luke
I only sent part
of my previous message ... here's the rest.
[My Son] was
observing that if he holds his hand up in front of his mouth --- about an
inch away--and then exhales with his mouth open onto his palm, that the
breath he feels on his palm feels warm. However, when he puts his lips
together -- like he is going to whistle--then blows out onto his palm again,
that it does not feel warm, but much cooler on his palm. He wonders why this
is so. I thought for a bit and speculated with him that when his mouth was
in the whistling position that perhaps the air was coming out of his mouth
faster than when he was breathing out on his hand with his mouth open. I
suggested that maybe the air being blown on his hand was taking the heat
away from his skin and making it feel cooler. Or that maybe the air was
being cooled as it traveled at a faster speed. Do you have any thoughts or
an explanation for this? Thanks much.
On another note, we recently went to 'orientation' for the school [My Son]
will be attending in the fall. It appears to be a satisfactory environment,
but it would be nice if schools included more 'emotional intelligence'
teaching into the curriculum. I believe developing a school's curriculum
around ... feelings and personal responsibility has great potential for
developing kids (and adults as well!). |
1.
Air circulation promotes evaporation and tends to cool things off (wind
chill effect).
2.
Air flowing from high pressure (cheeks) to low pressure (whistle stream)
cools off, by Pv=nrT.
You
and your son might like to devise some experiments to determine if either is
responsible for the cool hand effect.
In
running this experiment, and in waiting for schools to stimulate emotional
intelligence, don't hold your breath.

If
Fire Needs Air
I
wonder how come
we
can blow out candles.
Clip: http://www.mtwthailand.org/Team
/Missionaries/Veldhorst/Veld%20Photos/
2001/James%20B-day%20
blowing%20out%20candles.jpg |
Sun, 30 May 2004
The Monte
Carlo, Rather Than Pair Wise
Calibrations
Results
Showed a
Positive Expectation
Hi Ed,
I was annoyed at a stock in my portfolio. It was down 55%. The system am
using issued a sell stop on another stock that was down only 15% and held
the 55% looser. “Yet another interpretation on selling losers and letting
winners run,” I said to myself.
To pacify Fred, I took your advise and reduced my position size according to
a stocks volatility and proceeded to recalibrate the system and to see how
sensitive it was to this new advice. I rather than using a pair wise
optimization, I use a Monte Carlo technique.
What struck me was that in comparing the calibration results with the
baseline not much changed. The Monte Carlo technique varies the parameters
(breakout, exit …) over a larger range of values. The calibrations results
showed a positive expectation — not the best but not bad.
The lesson I
learned was the following a system even if it not that great is better than
not following a system.
Parameters are
incidental, sticking to a system is compulsory. The calibration results,
also explained, to me, that even systematic random trading is better than no
system.
I would appreciate your comments.
Thanks for the great FAQ. |
You
might try re-writing your post so that a 4-th grader can understand it.

Some
People Have to Work Hard
to
create confusion.
Others
just seem to have
a
knack for it.
Clip: http://www.uvm.edu/~mstorer/
escher/stuyck/woodtriangle.jpg
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Sun, 30 May 2004
Deep Fears
Dear Ed,
Last week I ... want to go scuba diving with my friends. I recall having
this desire for about 10 years. I am claustrophobic and fear suffocating --
so I am afraid to scuba. On Wednesday, I realize that I want to test whether
I can use TTP to overcome these deep fears and achieve my desire to scuba.
I sign up. The
first lesson in the pool is difficult. My mind is busy setting up the drama
big-time. I am breathing fast and shaking during most of the lesson and sure
enough, the first time I go under water, I panic.
I immediately
stand up and thrash about until I get my face out of the water-- mask and
respirator off.
I relax. I ask
myself if I'm willing to feel and accept the feelings that will come with
the panic. I say yes and I go back under the water. This time, in about
8 feet of water, I accept the panic attack as it happens ---- heart rate
zooms, throat tightens, can't swallow, muscles tighten, etc I experience all
that I'm feeling. I do not push away or judge the sensations ... I actually
believe I hear myself saying "hmmm--that's interesting",
and"ok".
I do not have a
sense of time for this but the panic passes. I swim around. At some point I
laugh and choke so I surface again -- but this time with a feeling of joy.
Next, I swim underwater in the pool for about 20 minutes. I feel ready for
the ocean dive to 30 feet.
The boat trip to the dive site is exciting but I start to think -- can I do
at 30 feet what is possible in the pool. I start to think that I will panic
-- perhaps 8 feet is okay because subconsciously I know I can easily get to
the top. I just sit there in the boat and enjoy all the feelings that come
up with these thoughts.
We arrive at the reef. I get into the water and start down. I remember I am
excited. As I reach 20 feet , I feel a sense of unease. I stop and accept
that the feelings are ok, the unease dissolves and I go on. I go to 30 feet
and swim around the reef for 35 minutes. To me, this is a miracle.. I look
at everything -- I point things out to my friends. My life is better because
of TTP. This is just one example. Thank you for sharing your process.
|
Congratulations
on going deep with the process.

The
depths contain
many
interesting critters.
like
a Galatheid Crab on lophelia

Sharks
May remind Us
that
one of the positive intentions of fear
is
risk control.
Clips:
http://www.naturalsciences.org/
education/deepsea/gallery.html
http://www26.brinkster.com/
larine/shark.jpg
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Sun, 30 May 2004
Interesting Article on Self-Control
This article (link below) implies conscious (non-natural) self-control is a
negative, as it drains energy. Seems accurate with my experience.
http://www.apa.org/monitor/
jun03/selfcontrol.html
|
That
you have "accurate" experiences - is consistent with liking to
logically control your feelings, and consistent with fear of letting your
feelings free to inform your decisions.

Yes,
Dear, Of Course I Love You
Just
look at this proof, a readout
on
my respiration rate, blood pressure,
glucose,
and pupil dilation.
These
readings are 99% accurate
as
to my experience,
so
that proves it once and for all.
So
I hope you do not find it necessary
to
bring this matter up again.
Clip: http://home.att.net/
~jeff1_satobserve/cp09.jpg |
Sun, 30 May 2004
Decision Making
Hi Ed
Could you please tell me what process you use to make very 'large' life
decisions.
I have been using
a variety of methods for a while, such as PrOACT (problem definition,
objectives, alternatives, consequences, trade-offs) and pros/cons, but I
have a very large life decision coming up, that involves changing
career, changing country potentially, staying in the US but in another city,
and potentially changing firms (multiples alternatives are appearing at
once).
You have been very successful, so I would be honored to have some insight as
to the processe(s) / system(s) you use for making such large decisions.
Thank you very much, |
You
do not provide specifics about your very large problem - only a
generalization. My guess is that your real pickle has to do with
withholding information from others.

The
Choice gets Clear
when
you can feel
what's
really important.
Clip: http://www.getfunnypictures.com/
crt242.html |
Sun, 30 May 2004
Absence
Ed,
I just spoke with [Name] and he queried my absence last week from the Tahoe
Tribe. I stated that I had not heard a reply from you concerning my status
for re-admission. If I am still welcome than I will definitely be there in
two weeks. Please advise.
Regards,
|
See
Missing a Tee Time May
15, a response to your earlier excuse.
Also,
you might like to re-view the admission requirements on the Tribe Directory
page. |
Sun, 30 May 2004
Risk the Analysis vs. Risk the Process
Before I jump into risk, allow me to compare analysis and process. When one
analyzes, things stop and are constructed piece by piece. The mind takes the
object of what is being scrutinized out of the process and records its’
state. A film editing is a good example. Movies provoke drama. One can take
a series of frames and order them to produce an emotional effect –
romantic mood. Order the frames again and one can produce and intellectual
effect – the reasons why a character fell in love.
The process of experiencing risk is far more lethal than the analysis of
risk.
Analytically, I
set my risk at 7% and feel warm and fuzzy all over. However, when I
experience risk, it tends to make my hair stand on end.
Risk as a process is scary. |
You
might consider taking your feeling of fear into the process.
You
might also consider running some computer simulations to find your optimal
risk amounts.

Warm
and Fuzzy
for
many professional traders
might
be in the area
of
about 1/2 % risk.
7%
might be a bit hot and frizzy.
Clip: http://www.candidgraphics.net/
Pages/GraphicDesign/Images/
Warm-Fuzzy-Bunnies.jpg |
Sat, 29 May 2004
Checking in --- and a Question
Hi Ed --
How are things, my friend? Hope all is well with your family.
Things here are going our kids are keeping us on our toes and are a lot of
fun. They seem to be so different from one another -- [Name] is very intense
and aggressive ... [name 2] is more laid back and passive. It's interesting
to observe.
Anyway, I have a question for you. [Name] was observing that if he holds his
hand up in front of his mouth --- about an inch away --- and then exhales
with his mouth open onto his palm, that the breath he feels on his palm is
warm. However, when he puts his lips together -- like he is going to whistle
-- then blows out onto his palm again, that it does not feel warm, but much
cooler on his palm.
He wonders
why this is so.
|
Congratulations
for raising a child full of wonder - a wonderful child.

The
wonder of being full
with
a wonderful child
Clip: http://katzphotos.com/pregnant.jpg
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Fri, 28 May 2004
Under-Fred Question
Chief,
Can you describe the relationship, and specific differences if any, between
Jung's collective unconscious and the Under-Fred network? I understand such
questions may be outside the purpose and scope of the (trading-skewed) TT
writings but I have to ask anyway because I'm really curious about this!!
Ed Says: "Everyone has a Fred, and all the Freds
connect together. Under Fred is the
primary communication network that connects all the Freds."
"Jung taught that the psyche consists of various systems including the
personal unconscious with its complexes and a collective unconscious with
its archetypes."
http://religions.myztek.com/
holbrook/colluncon.htm
|
Jung's
Collective Unconscious contains cultural archetypes, myths and customs -
language and imagery that we use to define our roles, our personalities,
ourselves.
The
Under-Fred Network connects our individual sub-consciousnesses.
If
the Collective Unconscious is a catalog of dramatic roles we might play,
Under Fred is the network we use to entrain each other to play them out.

Carl
Gustav Jung 1875-1961
formulates
archetypes
and
then becomes one.
Clip: http://www.newgenevacenter.org/
reference/20th-1st2.htm#jung
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Fri, 28 May 2004
Fred Alignment and Dreams,
per Carl Jung
Chief,
I have these questions about dreams and CM and Fred and TT.
I'm reading Carl Jung, his last book, MAN AND HIS SYMBOLS, written in 1961.
He writes about dreams and how dreams are a vital CM:Fred link. My
experience reading the book is that the book is understandable in part from
your writings on TT and my readings of it.
It seems the progression of thought on the CM:Fred connection is Jung,
Erikson, Seykota ... I have checked the TT site for 'dreams' and have not
found much.
Here's the thought from Jung that prompts my interest:
"For the sake of mental stability and even physiological health, the
unconscious and the conscious must be integrally connected and move along
parallel lines ... dream symbols are the essential message carriers from
the instinctive to the rational parts of the human mind, and their
interpretation enriches the poverty of consciousness so that it learns to
understand the forgotten language of the instincts."
-Carl Jung, page 37, MAN AND HIS SYMBOLS, paperback edition
Can you consider a fairly detailed response on role of dreams in clear
CM/Fred communication within the overall context of TT and TT processes?
Do TT processes prompt significant dreams [before, in-process, after]
TT-process-generated insights/ahas?
Are feelings about dreams [invalid, valid, supervalid] inputs (or even entry
points) into the TT process?
Does individual dreaming change in terms of significance (in any way) after
TT aha/insights?
I hope I've articulated my questions regarding dreams and TT with enough
clarity. Your writings are extremely interesting and I thank you for them.
|
Fred
sends forms to CM in many ways, including dreams
A
form may contain imagery, ideas emotions, feelings, thoughts, and somatic
properties.
TTP
is a process in which people assist each other in experiencing forms,
particularly ones that carry judgment and lie buried in k-nots.
As
a k-not loosens you may notice an increase in dreaming.

Dreams
may Contain
symbols
and images.
If
you don't experience a form,
Fred
may send you the real thing.
Clip: http://www.crab.rutgers.edu/
~pbutler/dream.jpg
|
Thu, 27 May 2004
Position Sizing Formula - Final
- FINAL VERSION -
Hi Ed,
Here is the final version of the position sizing formula for futures
contracts, taking into account commissions. If you find it is accurate,
please feel free to share it with other tribe members. Suggestions are
welcome as well on improvement.
Graciously,
INPUTS
---------------------------
A= ACCOUNT SIZE
R= Risk % (i.e. entering 2 means .02 or 2%)
C= Commission per Round Turn per Contract
E= Entry Price
S= Stop Price
P= LONG/SHORT
U= Unit Cost (i.e live cattle =400, since a $1 move in cattle = $400)
OUTPUT
--------------------------
IF P=LONG, then
((A*R)/(E-S))/U=X
Y=X(round up to nearest whole number)*C
X-((Y/(E-S))/U) = POSITION SIZING OUTPUT (number of contracts to buy)
---------------------------
IF P=SHORT, then
((A*R)/(S-E))/U=X
Y=X(round up to nearest whole number)*C
X-((Y/(S-E))/U) = POSITION SIZING OUTPUT (number of contracts to buy)
|
In
the moment of now, each event is the final one.
|
Thu, 27 May 2004
Position Sizing
Formula - Disregard
Hi Ed,
Sorry to bother you. The commissions part is still not right. Please
disregard my previous messages, and I will work on the formula some
more. Feel free to offer suggestions if you like, which would be very
gracious of you. Somehow I have to take the commissions times the number of
contracts to be traded..
This formula is complicated to me, since the commissions part of the formula
(second part) is dependent on the position sizing..
Thanks,
|
...
hmmm ...
|
Thu, 27 May 2004
Position Sizing
Formula - Correction
Hi Ed,
Sorry here is the correct formula I meant to post fro my last email.
I had B in the equation which is really R.
INPUTS
------------------------------
A= ACCOUNT SIZE
R= Risk % (i.e. entering 2 means .02 or 2%)
C= Commission per Round Turn per Contract
E= Entry Price
S= Stop Price
P= LONG/SHORT
U= Unit Cost (i.e. live cattle is 400, or $400 for each $1 move)
OUTPUT
--------------------------
OUTPUT
--------------------------
IF P=LONG, then POSITION SIZE=
((A*R)/(E-S))/U=Y
Y-((C/U)/(E-S)) = OUTPUT
---------------------------
IF P=SHORT, then POSITION SIZE=
((A*R)/(S-E))/U=Y
Y-((C/U)/(S-E)) = OUTPUT
|
...
hmmm ...
|
Thu, 27 May 2004
Position Sizing Formula
Hi Ed,
I am working on a position sizing formula for my clients, that takes into
account commissions for commodities (but will work with stocks if Unit Size
is set to 1 and you add up total commissions for two tickets).
I have spent a lot of hours on it. If you feel it is correct and useful,
feel free to share it with other tribe members who might find it of value.
INPUT variables
---------------------------
A= ACCOUNT SIZE
R= Risk % (i.e. entering 2 means .02 or 2%)
C= Commission per Round Turn per Contract
E= Entry Price
S= Stop Price
P= LONG/SHORT (customer selects in a box)
U= Unit Size
OUTPUT
--------------------------
IF P=LONG, then POSITION SIZE=
((A*B)/(E-S))/U=Y (round up to nearest whole number)
Y-((C*(Y/U))/(E-S)) = OUTPUT
---------------------------
IF P=LONG, then POSITION SIZE=
((A*B)/(S-E))/U=Y (round up to nearest whole number)
Y-((C*(Y/U))/(S-E)) = OUTPUT
Cheers,
|
...
hmmm ...
|
Wed, 26 May 2004
For Bears
http://www.nobodyhere.com/toren.hier |
Some
pyramiders just don't know how to give up.
|
Wed, 26 May 2004
Future TTP
Workshops
Dear Trading Tribe,
I would like to ask Mr. Seykota if he would be interested in hosting
a TTP workshop in the Boise, Idaho area. I am curious to know what Mr.
Seykota requires - such as # of participants, cost of lodging, etc. - before
agreeing to participate.
Thank you for your time.
Regards,
|
Your
indefinite proposal induces indefinite interest.
|
Wed, 26 May 2004
They say they
do
but when it
happens
they act like
they don't
Hello Ed,
Long time since my last e-mail. I have set up a little investment fund based
on trend following, risk management and money management. All of my
associates and clients (investors) are very familiar with the way the
accounts will behave.
I have stressed
that losing streaks will happen often and that they should be prepared for
them. All of them repeated at least 3 times to me that they were absolutely
comfortable with that and you know something: this is what is attracting a
lot of money now (for my surprise). Also, I established the uncle point to
the portfolio and stressed that the uncle point is an issue that must be
very clear to all of them. Until they see the performance reach the uncle
point level, they have no reasons to worry. I like to say: "If you see
this happening (uncle point), then you can start imagining things and
considering taking your money out. Please remember that."
To begin any sales conversation, I like to show last October performance
(the worst in 12 months) with 7 consecutive small losses and a -6.02%
drawdown to show everyone that this is something very likable to happen and
I know things will get back on their feet again eventually. And then I show
them November performance, which was boosted by the uptrend in EUR/USD and
the model account had a gain of 25.68% only in November. The following
months were also very profitable, since the trend continued in its way for 3
more months.
No matter how I point October's performance, people will look at November's.
After that, one of my associates always likes to stress that they should
look back again to October and make sure they understand that. You know what
happens: people laugh and say "I know I know ... I already understood
that!" It is like they only look to the long run performance - which is
very good performance - and neglect the poor performance months.
Well, the fund was set up this month, which is developing into a bad month
due to range bound currency markets. I'm very comfortable with that since I
risk only a defined amount of cash and I follow a very clear trend following
system which has shown consistent returns. Eventually I know 1 single trade
can reverse a bad loosing streak.
The problem is: those who did not hear me are getting anxious specially
because this is the first official month of the fund. I was very
uncomfortable with the feeling of starting the fund with a poor performance
- one that is already 0.3% worse than October's. I could hear enemy voices
in my head questioning why this was happening exactly in the 1st month and
how people would think (specially the ones who want immediate results) and
how they could label me as a fraud because of this first month. This was
very tough for me to handle since new thoughts about the end of the fund
because of a poor first month arose. The consequence: a very disturbing
hesitation towards trading the managed accounts.
Well, by accepting those strong feelings and accepting their good intentions
I actually can feel now more congruence between those voices in my head
(which now comes from my throat) and my own approach to trading - the
approach I have with my own trading account which I now can apply to the
managed accounts without hesitation. I don't worry anymore with the fact
that the first month was a poor one because I was honest with my clients
when I prepared them for something like this (and even worse, since the
uncle point is very distant from the present drawdown) and I know they all
remember that. I figured I have no motives to feel guilty and that everyone
who is riding along is riding because they want profitability and if this is
their real intentions, they should be prepared to accept losses from time to
time - which they said they were. I actually started to receive support from
my associates and they have been of great help standing up and supporting me
through this loosing streak.
I'm prepared to live the moment of now again with a very important lesson. I
hope that this experience can be of help to other traders who read the FAQ.
It was a honor to write again to you.
Thank you very much and my very best regards, |
Thank
you for sharing your experience.
|
Tue, 25 May 2004
Sticking to the
System
Hello Ed,
I am diligently working with TTP. I take the hot seat several times a month,
experience many AHA's accompanied by great emotional release.
However my behavior of not 'sticking to the system' still shows up.
My trading is fully automated (the computer monitors and sends in
orders automatically/electronically to the broker etc). The only thing
I need to do during the day is to ensure that connectivity (DSL) is up and
trading platform is up. To do that I have to be around during the day. Thus
this leads to the 'urge' to take a peak at how my system is doing intra day
and this leave the door open to Fred, so I end up tinkering with system
trades.
The system is fully back tested, I have been using it in real time for the
past 12 months, the results it is producing are in line with the back tested
expectations. However due to my interference I am under performing the
system.
In the market Wizards interview you said that 'Watching the market during
the day is like playing the slot machine, you end up feeding it all day'.
My friends have suggested that I just hire someone (student etc) to sit in
my office and monitor the connectivity and trading platform.
However I know of people who are system traders, who sit in front of the
market all day, watch it tick by tick, but have no 'urge' to tinker with
their system.
Would you have any comments? After feeling the feelings are their also
behavioral changes needed like not watching the market during the day etc.
All the best
|
You
might notice the feelings you have at the tinker point and take them, as
entries, into TTP.

Tinker
Bell
for
some, is the gong that sounds
to
announce the start of trading.
Clip: http://www.theartofcomics.com/
renaud/images/Tinker%20Bell%20Web.jpg
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Tue, 25 May 2004
Good News &
Bad News
Hi Ed !
The good news is my account equity is almost full of stocks making new
highs, 15 in number.
The bad news is my watch list for tomorrow has 56 more stocks all near new
highs.
Crunch time. Which to hold, which to fold ?
Nice problem to have: too many stocks making money.
|
Yes,
our problems tend to account for most of our income.
|
Tue, 25 May 2004
Emotional Diary
A popular market wizard recommends keeping an emotional diary. In this
diary,
you would make note of when you feel anxious or emotional, detailing the
time, nature of the emotion, thoughts (self-talk), interpretation of the
self-talk, situation, and whether these feelings are new or recurring.
Later you would
record your behavior at the time, whether you expressed your feelings or
not, and how long the feelings lasted and what made them go away.
My question to you
Ed is do you find this exercise consistent with the goals of the TT? If not,
do you find any portions of this exercise useful? Would you modify this
exercise in any way to make it more consistent with the TTP. The wizard
hopes this exercise would become a life-long ritual for the reader as it
would give great insight into themselves.
Thanks for your time, |
Thinking
about your feelings and writing them down might help you to identify
them.

Writing
about Emotions
may
be a step toward
experiencing
them
Clip: http://www.couplandesque.net/
culture/photography/writing.gif
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Tue, 25 May 2004
ALL-Time Highs
Ed,
I am keeping in mind the Chart page located on The Tribe website and bought
these stocks at or approaching all time highs:
CCJ
CUNO
FRO
HOC
LAYN
SJH
TSO
|
FAQ
offers no instrument-specific trading advice. See Ground Rules.
|
Tue, 25 May 2004
A Perfect Symbiosis:
Trend following and living like Pooh, the bear.
Have you read the marvelous book by Benjamin Hoff, The Tao of Pooh?
Yours sincerely,
|
TTP
seems compatible with many schools of thought.
|
Mon, 24 May 2004
Causality and Responsibility.
If causality is a convenient conceptual illusion, ... then how is do I
accept responsibility?
Wouldn't accepting responsibility hold me as the causal factor? And if
causality is a conceptual illusion wouldn't that say it was not all my
fault?
I do not ask these questions with any personal issues in mind. I find great
implications in addressing these deeply philosophical questions.
|
Causality
and Responsibility are notions; they have no existence, other than to
organize perception.
You
can't buy a causality or a responsibility at Wal-Mart.
The
causal model has very narrow application.
You
can use causality to analyze what happens when the cue ball strikes the ten
- you can't use it to analyze how the pool table, the balls, and the player
all come to appear at the same place and time.
The
responsibility model, in which you intend a result and assume responsibility
seems to provide a better fit for real-life situations.

The
cue ball
may
cause the ten to move.
The
player
is
responsible for the result.
Clip: http://www.cronullabeachyha.com/
budget-accomodation/
images/yha-pool-table.jpg |
Sun, 23 May 2004
Letter
Requesting Re-Admission
To The Incline
Village Tribe
To The Tribe,
This is a letter requesting re-admission to The Tribe. Writing this letter
forces me to face some black holes in my trading arena. These weaknesses are
not only sabotaging my trading, but are also wreaking havoc on my personal
life.
In the last month my life has emotionally spun out of control, culminating
with me missing a Tribe meeting. The same feelings I have been avoiding in
the trading arena have begun to effect my entire life. The core feeling is
fear. Fear of learning to do the things that successful trend followers do.
It is not a fear of commitment. It is not a fear of sticking or not sticking
to my system. It is a fear of admitting to myself that I have no system to
stick to. I like to call myself a systems trader, but that is dishonest. I
follow my entries and stop-loss orders (2%). The anxiety begins when I’m
up money. I take profits arbitrarily. I take profits when the money is
burning a hole in my pocket. My lack of a defined exit strategy is wreaking
havoc on my trading. I feel deep anxiety because I know in my heart that I
am powerless to control myself from ending winning trades too early.
This letter of requesting re-admission to The Tribe is forcing me to ask
What is really going on? Am I lazy for not just doing the research, finding
an exit strategy that I like, and testing it out? Maybe. “It never was my
thinking that made the big money for me. It was always my sitting.”
(Reminiscences Of A Stock Operator p. 68). This quote resonates deeply with
me because I have never, ever ridden a trend. I’ve never held onto a
winner for more than a month. I don’t know what it even feels like. Even
the thought holding onto a trade for months on end makes my stomach
constrict. It requires patience. It’s a black hole of confusion; it’s
undefined, and I’m not comfortable with uncertainty. Entering a trade,
making some money, adding to the position, making some more money, ending
the trade, that is my modus operandi. Then, for the next week, month, year,
I watch the trade that I prematurely ended, get the calculator out, figure
out how much I would have made on that trade. The cycle repeats itself.
Perfection. I want perfection. I want definition. I don’t have it now, the
way I currently trade is not bringing me closer to perfection. When I was
a child I colored in coloring books. I loved it; it was my passion. Yet,
when I drew outside the lines, I immediately ripped that page out of the
book and threw it in the trash. It was immediately imperfect. No
discussion. When I end a winning trade I feel perfect at that second. It’s
a feeling of purity, a feeling of bringing me closer to my dreams. Then, for
the next week, month, year every time I pull up a chart of that trade I feel
imperfect because, once again, I was powerless over my emotions. I now know
that discipline in trading is a lot more than cutting losers. It is letting
winners run. “Men who can both be right and sit tight are uncommon.”
(Reminiscences Of A Stock Operator p. 69).
I feel embarrassed to ask other traders about exit strategies because it
highlights my incompleteness. I feel others have power over their
weaknesses, and I do not. The fear of facing these questions (even just
thinking about confronting myself with these questions) makes my stomach
constrict. Is this Fred in my trading? Overcoming this weakness will
transform my trading. After writing this, and re-reading it, it is painfully
obvious that the fear of holding onto winners is preventing me from becoming
a more profitable trader, and I am afraid to become that person. It makes my
heart quiver. It makes me feel like I will become someone else. I will have
to give up being me, and become a new person; I don’t know if I am ready
to give up being me, it makes me sad. Perhaps I secretly entertain this
drama? Perhaps I secretly love to entertain this drama! Aha.
I have two choices: 1) embrace my dramas through the help of The Tribe and
face my discipline issues head on. This requires learning and implementing a
system that will prevent me from ending trades prematurely, or 2) remain an
incomplete trader by inviting the same dramas to manifest themselves - thus
not becoming the trader I want to become, not attend Tribe meetings, and
continue to permit these dramas to wreak havoc on my life in general.
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You
might have some ripe entry points. (Re-) Admission requirements
include consistent attendance and full participation.

In
Coloring Outside the Lines, author Roger Schank asserts that raising
smarter kids isn't about forcing information on them when they aren't ready
or interested.
Maintaining
that school is generally not the best place for active learning, Schank says
parents can counteract any potential harm by emphasizing positive
experiences.
Clip:
www.amazon.com
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Sun, 23 May 2004
Investment
Psychology Explained
Ed,
BTW, I just took my CMT Level II exam yesterday. One of the required reading
assignment is Martin Pring's "Investment Psychology Explained."
There is a chapter titled "What makes a great trader or
investor?", and you are one of five people he mentions. At one point in
the book he puts you and short-term trend follower in the same sentence,
which I find odd. Also, the book says, "He (ie. Ed Seykota) uses the
systems to filter out buy and sell signals, then uses his own judgment to
decide how he should act on those signals. This in a nutshell is his
philosophy." (Sounds very much like Fred's playground then if one keeps
second-guessing and judging trade signals)
Anyway, I just find it interesting because he is describing you who is
different from what I know from your FAQ or from meeting with you. While I
can't say who is the "real" you, I just find it funny how everyone
has a different view of you and what you said. And if you were ever to take
a test where you yourself (and what you said) is part of the test, I find it
funny to think that you may have a different answer than the model test
answer, even though I can't imagine anyone knowing your own trading
philosophy better than yourself. |
You
might have some feelings about wanting to know who people really are -
perhaps even yourself.

Yesterday,
upon the stair.
I
saw a man who wasn't there.
He
wasn't there again today.
Gee,
I wish he'd go away.
Clip: http://kreative1.homestead.com/
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Sat, 22 May 2004
The Hard Ball
Process and Shyness #2
See
below
Pollinator comment: Oh, in the hardball process, when
one couldn’t verbalize it, they were encouraged to get into the physical
feeling as their answer.
I hadn't read that when I sent you the message below. It's interesting how
question and answer seem to happen at the same time of now.
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See
Below.
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Fri, 21 May 2004
Primate Poker
Chief, you'll like this web site:
Apes from Des Moines are playing no-limit poker online.
www.PrimatePoker.com
"Most people bring their psychological baggage to the poker table. That
baggage plays out as drama. Apes don't have baggage. They live in the
moment. They just execute."
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I
see your coconut and raise you five bananas.

Only
the Most Intelligent Species
(lower
right)
have
the desire and ability
to
jump their systems
http://www.caterina.net/
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Fri, 21 May 2004
Chinese Version of TTP
Dear Ed,
Per our discussions, this week my wife went through each character of the
TTP document linked to the Taipei Tribe website ... I am very pleased to
advise you, that this is translated absolutely flawlessly. (It will
introduce the TTP process to both the local and overseas Chinese world in a
quite clear and concise way in the future.)
The Tribe leader should be highly commended on this work and his excellent
understanding of the process as well.
Best regards,
P.S. This helped my wife to better comprehend TTP also.
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OK.
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Fri, 21 May 2004
The Hard Ball Process and
Shyness
Hi Ed!
I have a question about the Hardball Process. I have opposite feelings about
it. On the one hand, I witness that some of the proclamations I made in my
family tribe meeting on December 31st have come true. Nevertheless, on the
other hand, I am the kind of person who likes to keep one's objectives and
goals hidden or secret, and I fear that they are threatened if and when I
make them public, such as proclaiming them aloud.
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You
can conduct the hardball process with a proxy name for your goal, like
"The Goal." Then your receiver can prompt, "What's
standing between you and The Goal."
You
can also eliminate story from your responses, and express mostly somatically.
This tends to accelerate the process and also preserve your confidentiality.

You
can maintain your confidentiality
by
expressing somatically
Clip: http://journalscape.com/
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